New Years 2012

I wanted to do something special for New Years. Be away from everyone except me & my guy. He went to Germany with his family for Christmas. I felt kind of bad asking him to go out of town with me the next weekend he got back - but I really wanted to go. He was up for it. So we rang in 2012 on River Street in downtown Savannah. It was a beautiful weekend. We toured the Mercer house Saturday when we arrived. It was very cool. Did some walking around. Hung out in City Market. Sunday we went to Lady & Sons because he hadn't been before. It was yummy like always. On the drive back we stopped by my Grandma's house to visit my Aunt - that was cutting down a rose bush. It was the first time he's met anyone in my family. Of all people to meet in my family - I'm most comfortable with my Aunt. So this didnt bother me. As we were leaving he told my Aunt it was about time they met. I ignored that comment. We've been together for over a year now. Its been nothing serious. And we've had 2 breakups - which coincide with a different Erica - which is way funny. I dont think he knows about all the stuff I know about. But I must say its taken me a lot of time to build trust with him again. For NYE I told my friends (close) that I was going to tell him I loved him.  Huge deal for me. You just have no idea. My friends tell me I'm the dude in a relationship. I dont commit. I dont expess my feelings. To talk about the future is absurd. But with him its always been different. From the beginning Ive fought getting close to him. I think thats why. To say I love him wasnt a chore like it has been in the past. I know he loves me. He's slipped soo many times. I dont know if this is forever. Because there isnt a 'forever' with me - just a limited visit. But for now I'm happy. I think he is too. So Im just going with it...